To dream the impossible dream.

We often desire things that we don't even have the faith to reach. It's as if they're just there to serve the purpose of the unreachable dream, they're just something we enjoy leisurely daydreaming about, without even considering if they could be reachable or not. We just always assume that they're not, and we let our hands hang by our sides, and keep on dreaming. Well, have you ever imagined the possibility if they were?
Often, more then half the things we think of as impossible or unreachable, are very realistic and possible to reach. Then why do we keep on living our mundane lives without going for what we actually desire? We keep our own self-built chains and shackles around us, which gives us a seeming sense of security and stability, when in reality we're just walking around in circles, only deepening the rut of the path our feet constantly keep wearing down, blistering and roughening,  while imagining what its like to walk on the soft grass around us or what its like to feel the warm soft sand between our toes. The key to unlocking the chain around our necks and the shackles around your feet, is in your pocket. It's not an impossible task to unlock those constraining devices, and run towards the sunset, with your arms wide open to embrace the beauty around you. It's not that hard to reach what you've always wished for. You just need to accept that its real, and make that effort to reach out to it. Whatever it is, getting a new job, losing weight, learning how to dance, traveling around the world, reach world fame, discover something new, anything. It's all possible. Your possibilities don't have limits. As long as you keep saying I can't, you really won't be able to. But when you start accepting that you CAN, and start doing steps towards your goal, you won't notice how quickly you reach it. Sure, its a process, it could take years, but if its what you really want, you WILL acheive it. I'm sure you'd heard the stories of many great men and women who have done just that, and acheived their goals after years of sweat, blood, and tears. You could be one of those men or women. There is no stopping the wonders your mind, and in turn your body, can do. Start the steps towards your seemingly impossible dream, and soon you will find that you're living in it.

~May the force be with you.
      ~Crayola

Just Some Thoughts

This was originally sent to a struggling friend of mine, only that it has been altered quite a bit.

Why are you depressed? Why do you hate your life? Why do you continue to just sit there doing nothing?

Why do you insist on being just emotional? Your tears won't help you. You can gain pity and attention from people, but they don't really have the force of will to help you in all levels.

Do you even have the guts to stand up for yourself?

If there are things that need to be done, do it.

You don't need people to tell you what to do. It is still up to you to write your own fate.

Will you continue grieving with your emotions?

Or let go of the past and move on?

What's more important to you, something absent? Or your own self filling that gap, not by grieving about it; but by doing something to acquire it, which one?

Sometimes, if we just think about it real hard, we desire for things that won't be there to satisfy us forever.

It's that longing that constantly makes us suffer.

Are you comfortable that way?

Do you get what you want by continuing to hurt yourself physically or mentally about it?

Is there even the will to do something about it?

Is there?

Wake up; you're playing the role of a character from an epic.

What you're doing right now, is just allowing yourself to fail most unnecessarily. 

Wake up, you're still alive and breathing.

Don't be too negative, it's a useless joke and it's unnecessary.

Don't be too positive either, it's also unnecessary and it will only catch you in disappointment.

Just bear reality for what it truly is.

Stay strong, fight and contain those useless feelings.

Everybody wants to be loved, it's tough to expect.

Love isn't something asked, it's given to you.

The problem with people today is that they want everything for themselves.

They'd rather feel loved, whereas they don't even share the same feelings.

But sometimes, it's best not to expect anything in return, because it hurts to think about ourselves all the time.

The fact that we don't get what we expected or wanted in return, is also another thing that is making us suffer.

Love, and expect nothing in return.

That's unconditional love.

That's true love.

It would be rare to find people who actually share love with each other, without forcing the other to give some... or to give more... or to give less.

It's just that way, it's abstract, and it shouldn't be measured.

It is felt sincerely by the soul, not imagined.

It is embraced, not taken for granted.

If we haven't found someone willing to be with us forever, perhaps they aren't the right people.

With everything, there's always a reason.

Either they're not the right ones, or there is someone out there that will be especially for you.

Don't just seek and keep, focus on being the right person.

~Issyl

A Time For Something

There's always a time for something.
A time to dream, and a time to awaken.
A time for today, and a time for tomorrow.
A time to sow, and a time to harvest.
A time to receive, and a time to give.
A time to hate, and a time to love.
A time to lose, and a time to win.
A time for darkness, and a time for light.
A time for hope, and a time for despair.
A time for birth, and a time for death.
A time of rising, and a time of falling.
A time of war, and a time for peace.
Again, there's always a time for something.
And they are inevitable.
Nothing just happens.
There's always a reason behind everything.
They don't happen without a particular reason.

Now, go, don't be sad if some things are bothering you as it is.
Because remember, you are given the chance to do something about it just as well.
~Issyl

The Meaning of Life

Often I ask people, what is your priority in life? What holds first place for you at this point in time? And often, the answers are quite similar and down to earth. Be it friends or family, fun and games, or work and studies, or making yourself happy. Many people haven't even been able to give an answer, saying to me " I don't know I haven't thought about it." Well maybe now is the time to give it some thought.
First of all, lets take a look at your plans and goals for the future. What do you want to do with your life? Many young people tell me, "I don't know, how should I decide?" Well, I'll tell you that you can't see the future, nor can you plan it out. But that doesn't mean you should panic. Listen to yourself. What do you desire in your life right now? Are you happy with your life? What do you think would make you happy? Are you ready to do whatever it takes? Take a look at all of these aspects, and the answer will come to you.
In my life I've come to a point where I realized, living for myself and my goals and my dreams, didn't make me happy. All my wishes and desires were so small and unimportant compared to the big wide universe, or just even the city I was living in. I realized all of them would lead to nothing in the end. Whenever I reached one of them, all I felt like was: "Now what?" There was little sense of fulfillment in the end, because everything I had accomplished was only for my own benefit. And when it came down to it, it didn't even benefit me all that much. There was just this emptiness... If before, I had something to work for, something I strove for and drove myself through sweat and tears for it, when I had finally reached it, the happiness I felt from it was so much more short-lived than all the work and pain I went through to reach it. There needs to be a constant stimulation for something, otherwise you're just stuck with a meaningless void inside of you. I think this is the reason for why we see everyone running about, trying to gain something, trying to do something, wanting to get more and more for a reason they themselves don't even know, just to have something to do, something to fill up that void with. And often, these people aren't happy, and many are even tired and dissapointed with this constant need to do something with themselves and their lives. Often, the ones who realize the meaningless of this moving about, just drop everything that they're doing. They have no goals, no plans, no meaning. They just give up on trying to find it, many commit suicide. Think about it. This is actually quite a big problem in the world. You're probably running through thoughts in your head, trying to come up with something you would solve this meaningless in your life with. Trying to find that exact goal and priority that would keep you going, that would give meaning to your entire life, without promising fake results, and giving you nothing but a short moment of happiness and fulfilment, Well, I can't tell you what to do, nor am I in the place to give you advice, but allow me to tell you about my solution.
There is this constant source of happiness that I tap into everyday. Even when something goes wrong, or I'm having a tough time in life, there is a constant joy deep inside of me. I am always at peace, and I'm never afraid of what life may bring. I know everything is going according to plan, whatever happens to me. And that there is always a reason to everything that happens, even when I don't see it. I don't have to run around and try to fill my days with something, because I already have meaning to my life, a reason I'm living for. It's a purpose to my entire life. So if you're curious as to what it is, keep reading.
You might think this is cheesy or fake, or probably even absurd, impossible, and false, but here I am, and I am completely honest with myself and with you. The absolute meaning to my life, is Jesus. It's that simple. You may ask, "What? How, and why?" Well, I'll tell you, that Jesus is the reason that I'm living. He is the reason, that I'm breathing this air, that I'm thinking these thoughts, He is my Creator, and He is the one who saved my soul and payed for my sins. I'm saved, and I'm under His care, and my life is in His hands, the best hands in the universe. The hands that can always be trusted. And my life is following his perfect plan, just for me. And all I want to do with my life, is serve Him. All I want to do, is follow His will for me, and seek Him daily. Living for Jesus is what brings fulfilment to my life. I might be a simple person, not even yet an adult of age, able to do something as big as an adult would. But when I serve Him, I know its all for a purpose, I know my life is not lived in vain, and I am doing something useful. Even a simple prayer of mine, helps make the world a better place. And I am important and priceless to God. He loves me for who I am, no matter what I've done, and I am His, forever. This is what brings me joy, in anything I might be doing. I am God's creation, like no one else. I am unique and priceless in His eyes. And guess what? So are you. And He loves you, just as much as I know He loves me. And this love is endless.
This will probably not be easy for you to believe. You might not believe it at all. But once you do, its like a whole new world has been open to you. As if you're another person, finally with a meaning to your ENTIRE life. It's that simple. All you need to do, is accept this gift. Its yours, whenever you want it. And its free. Think about it.
In the end, no matter what your decision is, or what you think about this, I love you. Even if I don't see you, and there are millions of miles between us, dear reader, I love you. And I'm reaching out to you with this post, the only way I can, and I hope you can feel me sending a smile your way. If you want to reach my hand, feel free to comment :) I will love any response you send me.
May the force be with you,
~Crayola

Too Much

Too often, everything, and everyone just gets too much.
Too much that we can't take it anymore.
As much as our nerves turn red in anguish.
Still, we still seem to be incapable of doing anything about it.
Everyone always misunderstands you.
And how hope starts to seemingly be a false feeling.
A candle's flame, blew off in the oblivion of darkness.
A caged heart.
As things don't get to be at your side.
As things always turn out to be at your disadvantage.
Finding people who comfort you at times, just out of pity.
No actual solid attachment.
Then if they get bored you, they'll forget you.
You seem to be alone in the world.
No one to love that loves you back.
No one to be sincerely friends with.
Many of them, users and snakes in the grass.
As you recall your traumatizing past, we only see pain and sorrow.
Yet it is still evident in the torturing present.
And we realize that it may still come in the near future.
You don't know who you are.
And what your purpose is.
And why you're still alive.
And why you're still breathing.
Constantly asking yourself:
Why? Why? Why?
Often times, you would contemplate suicide.

But is that really your only solution?

What if, too often, you over-think the negative stuff, on everything and everyone just too much?
What if you can still take it after all?
Even if our anguish tries to conquer us, we are rational beings. Emotion isn't a direct answer to life.
I'm sure not everyone misunderstands you, don't be so hard on yourself.
Learn and think about why people don't understand you.
Think of a new method or way of expressing yourself, what you're thinking and what you're feeling.
It also involves explaining it clearly and properly, without letting your emotions dominate completely.
And about hope, it isn't found, it is made.
If you light a candle in pitch-black darkness, it can glow even from a far distance.
Darkness is the absence of light, not the opposite.
As long as the light is there; you're still alive, you're still capable of fighting and facing your challenges.
Sometimes, you'll just see that you're the only person caging your own heart.
It's tough to be in the disadvantage, but it's how we learn to be stronger, right?
Would you still learn if everything in life were good? Nothing is perfect. Bear with it.
Many of us, even though we're not aware of it, are fighting themselves everyday in their very lives.
Many who became too relaxed about their life being good, end up at shock when everything just collapses in front of them; defenseless and appalled.
Even if you seem to be alone in the fight, stay strong. It's all just to make us feel good to relate with someone out there. But sometimes, we just can't force ourselves to have someone to be around us all the time.
They may be having their own problems in life as well, will you be there to comfort them though?
It may seem unfair for you, but you have got to stop thinking about yourself all the time, okay?
Isn't it better to give than receive? We will always be in suffering if we remain selfish, forever.
Expecting something better, after your good deeds, in return is already selfish in nature, just let the things, good and bad, come to you. Value the good ones, learn from the bad ones.
Friends. It's better to have a few good friends, than having a lot but fake friends, isn't it?
It is also necessary to stop thinking about your past, if you had mistakes and regrets from it, then just see what you did wrong, and how you're going to make it right the next time it might happen. Learn from it.
There is no destiny, you only have a written fate. A fate written by your own actions in the present.
Now, know more about yourself.
Spend your time thinking.
Think, okay? Breathe in and breathe out...
Give yourself some time to make an introspection, a self-evaluation.
Given everything and everyone that you have, accompanied by good things and the hardships...
And how you should deal with all these...
Just ask yourself:
How? How? How?
Think and act about overcoming the hardships, and there will come a time that you will love life.

Would you rather kill yourself, which I do think is a pathetic decision since it will waste a bright person such as you are? Or would you stop whining, and stand up for yourself?

~Issyl

Hope?

Hope only exists only if you allow it to.
Hope itself doesn't have a guarantee to everything.
In the end, it can either bring joy or disappointment after everything.
It's still a gamble on what to feel about something that we see or want from within ourselves.
But you know, it's actually better than being hopeless.
Why?
The absence of hope is already a condition in which you surrender yourself to whatever life gives you.
That might be good in a way, but you won't have the force of will; the determination to strive for something.
Hopelessness to its maximum extent can cause you to do pathetic things.
Hopelessness can bring yourself down unnecessarily when you are actually capable.
Hopelessness can give you an option to commit suicide, as if it was actually your only good option.
Hopelessness, is actually useless.
To hope, is a feeling to get things that you wanted can be had or for things to turn out to be the best.
Expecting something to happen?
Don't be mad if things don't go the way you want them to be, you might have done something to cause it that way if ever it had anything to do with you. And the weather? It's no one's fault, it's just there constantly. It happens and no human can control the weather, seriously.
Expectations can help you with your capacity to acquire what you wanted too.
You may also consider working for what you want, because hope alone is irrational without doing something to fulfill it. If you remain dependent on thought alone, you will be disappointed on a huge percentage.
Also, disappointment after a hope for something is part of life.
Don't worry about it, at least you've learned your lesson.
Evaluate what went wrong, and how you're going to change yourself for the better next time you're faced with a similar challenge.

You're a human being, you are capable of thinking and acting.
Whining doesn't help and won't help you if you don't help yourself.
Okay?

~Issyl

Idling Around?

Have you ever asked yourself what your purpose in life is?
Do you think already have one? Or have you allowed yourself to be controlled and influenced by other people around you to have their own purpose for you? Or have you been doing things that are pointless this whole time?
These are important questions, because you see, it's your only direction in life.
Do not allow yourself to be controlled and influenced by others to have a purpose that you didn't even make by yourself, because you will be lost trying to fulfill it to make yourself feel "accepted."
Do you think it's too late?
Well, it's actually not. The fact that you still wake up and flowers bloom in the morning, is a sign that you are given a chance everyday.
A chance to aspire,  a chance to inspire, or a chance to dream.
It's not too late just yet.
Have you found out what you're good at?

Are you good at language and speech?
Are you good at art?
Are you good at critical-thinking and analysis?
Are you good at athletics?
Are you good at arithmetic and numerals?
Are you good at fixing things?
Are you good at counseling people?
Are you good at leadership and leading the way?
Are you good at planning?
Are you good at helping others full-heartedly and selflessly?

There are a lot of things that you can possibly be good at.

Ask yourself, what are you good at?

Don't tell me that you don't have anything that you're good at.
That's impossible.

You probably haven't found it within yourself... yet.
Think about your interests, not the interests of your family, parents, friends, or society as a whole.
Think about it, for yourself.

What do you like?
What do you love?
What do you dislike?
What do you hate?
What do you like doing?
What do you love doing?
What do you dislike doing?
What do you hate doing?

You have plenty of time to think about it, seeing that you're also reading every word in here.

After you're done thinking about it; compile everything, plot it, and make a conclusion out of it.

I, <name>, will _______, and I will do everything in my power and all my best in order to fulfill it.

~Issyl